Just breathe....

So many years I have stressed over everything. Is that toy safe? Is my house clean enough? Am I spending enough time with my daughter? Am I getting enough "me time?" My daughter is almost 4 and I feel like I have lost myself in raising her. I have forgotten how to be myself and what the right balance is between mother and woman. Something had to change because I became to dislike the woman in the mirror. Not that I regret becoming a mother at all, I just became too absorbed in her life. I learned that by me doting on her, I was not only ignoring my own needs, but creating a very needy child.

A kind friend suggested I join the gym and let my daughter play in the child area while I work out. I thought about it, and decided to try it out. Well, what a difference this has made. I get out, do something to better my body and my daughter loves to play in the child area. So what I am learning is to just breathe more.... to not worry if toys are littered on the floor while she is awake, I do spend enough time with my daughter, I keep track of recalls, and if I feel like I need me time, I should just get a sitter and go out. No big deal. Loving in the moments is just about that... loving every moment of life.